Monday, April 23, 2012

October, 1937: Centered

Anais Nin has a center, and she wants to live from this center. She is relationship-centered, views relationship as an art, and her life revolves around intimate friendships and affections. She knows who is at the core - Hugh, Henry, and Gonzalo, and who is at the periphery. Relationships are her lighthouse that governs her growth and happiness. Belonging, acceptance, and popularity are crucial with her peripheral friends; she is fearful of embarrassment or rejection. She yearns to be completely understood as she was by Dr. Rank who made her feel like a princess who did extraordinary things.

Anais is aware that she has peripheral friends who come to her with their troubles, expecting a cure, using her. They drain her, go off happy and satisfied, and leave her depleted, making no contribution to her life. Those at her core disappoint her as well, and at times, she just needs to enter into solitude and take care of her own basic needs. This usually involves writing, editing, re-writing, re-living her diary.

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