Anais Nin continues to be psychoanalyzed by Dr. Rene Allendy who says she is responding quickly and is almost cured. Anais knows, however, that she is hiding parts of herself, keeping secrets, holding back. Her reading of D.H. Lawrence opened her up but shattered her into pieces, and she says that each piece is separate and is developing a life of its own. Anais knows she cannot be content with a domestic life filled with wifely duties and yet she's not sure the vagabond artist's life of Henry fits her either.
Anais is growing, developing, expanding. She is meeting people, going places, and doing things outside of the comfort zone of her past, and she is thriving, living, perhaps for the first time and becoming her own woman, not the woman her mother or father or husband wants her to become. It takes courage and confidence. Anais knows she may disappoint others, but who's life is this anyway?
This week I did a breakfast tour of Chicago, going to a new place each day: Tweet Let's Eat, Over Easy Cafe, Bongo Room, M. Henry, and Lula Cafe. I took long walks afterwards and explored new parts of the city. Reading, writing, observing people and architecture, striking up conversations with strangers have all been part of my week. I think of Anais staying up past midnight, watching the sun rise, talking, drinking wine, discovering herself which inspires me to do the same. What have you done to expand yourself?
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