In this Diary entry, Anais Nin speaks of her true nature as being comprised of idealism, spirituality, poetry, imagination, beauty, and a need to create. She at times feels a lack of imagination and beauty in other people and is drawn to those more like herself.
Her need to create may be what drew her to June Mansfield, who creates a life filled with fantasies, and this feeds Anais' cravings to be released from boredom of life in quiet Louveciennes. June has had experiences, heightened by drugs and alcohol, which appeal to Anais although Anais feels she carries this heightened state within her, with no need of drugs or alcohol. June's lack of ethics also create contradictions in how Anais feels towards her, as Anais reminds herself not to expect others to be like her, not to tamper with others' nature, and instead to accept them entirely.
How true this is, to be attracted to traits in others you wish to have in yourself, but at the same time, to try to make them more like yourself. You can spin yourself dizzy. Just when you think you've found a like-minded companion, you discover they have a flaw. Oh, but wait a minute, I have a few flaws of my own.
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