In this entry of The Diary of Anais Nin, Volume One, Anais speaks of being divided into three selves:
She is Mrs. Guiler, living in Louvciennes, with a maid, running a household, paying bills, writing novels and diaries.
She is Mrs. Miller, living in Villa Seurat, peeling her own potatoes and grinding her own coffee, using hand-me-down cups and towels, cleaning her own house, sitting in cafes, talking about books, smoking.
She is a third self, still in development, learning a profession so she may become independent. She is leaving Paris soon and going to New York for two months to assist Dr. Otto Rank.
It reminds me of how at times my inner self and my outer self don't match, are in conflict, and how this takes more energy than just being who I really am. Anais is still finding, discovering, creating herself, as I believe we all are for our entire lives.
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